I have been on blogger since June of 2009... HOLY CRAP. Also, before that, I had kept an extensive blog on CrapSpace MySpace over a 3 year time frame. Basically, I've been blogging for a lonnnnnng time my friend.
Too long?
That is the question of the week.
I have previously played with the thought of ending this blog. That thought has been slowly creeping into my mind again.
I'm just kind of bored with this space. I used this mostly as an "online journal" of sorts with rarely any focus or "mission" in mind. And frankly, I don't find myself to be that terribly interesting!
Am I fucking awesome? Hells to the yeah. Am I hilarious? You know it.
But, as this being a "journal"... I am unfortunately walking the line of mundane as of late. WHICH IS COMPLETELY FINE IN REAL LIFE! (I love it... it's been so much more calm lately... I needed the calm.) But, in blogger world it means I don't have jack shit to write about.
I'm 25 years old (26 in February!). I have a 4 year old daughter. I am pregnant with baby numero dos that is due in July. I am a full-time Undergrad at MSU. Essentially, I wake up, eat breakfast, go to class, pick up Eva from school, play with her, make dinner, clean up, give her a bath, put her to bed, lay on the couch and feel the baby kick and watch something on TV, do homework, go to bed.
Sometimes I'll find room for arts and crafts or I'll write..
But, lately- I have just been relaxing. And, holy cow, I needed this badly. I was going a mile a minute and not taking time for the quiet beauties of life. It's been amazing.
And, it's funny how much better things have gotten once I finally stopped being stubborn and realized how much I love Garrett. We were so young when we started dating (I was 19!) and we became parents before anyone else we knew... and it was hard. So hard. We both came from dysfunctional families and without really a "guide" for how functional adults who love each other work, we were lost. Splitting up was a huge mistake and also a blessing. It gave us a little time to seek independence, gain some of the "freedom" we lost by entering parenthood so young, and most importantly- taught us to appreciate one another. We didn't do that before.
Holy moly, totally sidetracked there.
But, yes.... life isn't terribly eventful- and I love it. And, I don't know what that means for this blog. I would like to continue writing... but I think something else with more direction needs to emerge possibly? As for now, I'm unsure.
Happy Monday... Even though it's Tuesday. It totally feels like Monday.
Too long?
That is the question of the week.
I have previously played with the thought of ending this blog. That thought has been slowly creeping into my mind again.
I'm just kind of bored with this space. I used this mostly as an "online journal" of sorts with rarely any focus or "mission" in mind. And frankly, I don't find myself to be that terribly interesting!
Am I fucking awesome? Hells to the yeah. Am I hilarious? You know it.
But, as this being a "journal"... I am unfortunately walking the line of mundane as of late. WHICH IS COMPLETELY FINE IN REAL LIFE! (I love it... it's been so much more calm lately... I needed the calm.) But, in blogger world it means I don't have jack shit to write about.
I'm 25 years old (26 in February!). I have a 4 year old daughter. I am pregnant with baby numero dos that is due in July. I am a full-time Undergrad at MSU. Essentially, I wake up, eat breakfast, go to class, pick up Eva from school, play with her, make dinner, clean up, give her a bath, put her to bed, lay on the couch and feel the baby kick and watch something on TV, do homework, go to bed.
Sometimes I'll find room for arts and crafts or I'll write..
But, lately- I have just been relaxing. And, holy cow, I needed this badly. I was going a mile a minute and not taking time for the quiet beauties of life. It's been amazing.
And, it's funny how much better things have gotten once I finally stopped being stubborn and realized how much I love Garrett. We were so young when we started dating (I was 19!) and we became parents before anyone else we knew... and it was hard. So hard. We both came from dysfunctional families and without really a "guide" for how functional adults who love each other work, we were lost. Splitting up was a huge mistake and also a blessing. It gave us a little time to seek independence, gain some of the "freedom" we lost by entering parenthood so young, and most importantly- taught us to appreciate one another. We didn't do that before.
Holy moly, totally sidetracked there.
But, yes.... life isn't terribly eventful- and I love it. And, I don't know what that means for this blog. I would like to continue writing... but I think something else with more direction needs to emerge possibly? As for now, I'm unsure.
Happy Monday... Even though it's Tuesday. It totally feels like Monday.
Should you continue blogging? Yes. Next question?
ReplyDeleteSometimes I get to where I am sick of blogging.. so I don't. I just don't.
ReplyDeleteEventually I end up coming back (I have been blogging here since September 2009, and Myspace before that, and MSN spaces even before THAT.. so I know what you mean by 'too long?').
Although I don't want to see you go, if you're not into it, don't do it. Don't apologize. Don't agonize over it. You're not obligated to anyone. Write because you want to.
And if you don't want to, don't do it.
All that being said though, I love that everything sounds like it's going fantastically in Azia-world. It makes me very happy to hear.
You know, every single time I get stuck on something to write, I write anyway. The one day you tell yourself that you want to end this is the day that some major life altering event that you really want to write about comes along.
ReplyDeleteIn other words, and I mean this nicely, don't stop fucking blogging.
I totally hear you about the needing the calm. Life is hectic. Blogging makes it more so, even though it's fun. Thats part of why I stopped blogging too--also I felt kind of silly just writing about my life. My life isn't THAT interesting. Lol. Anyway, if you do stop blogging, don't let me lose ya on twitter & instagram, k?!
ReplyDeleteYou're right. It does feel like a Monday. Tomorrow feels like a Monday already, too.
ReplyDeleteLife doesn't have to be eventful, as long as you're happy. Right?
Please don't stop blogging. You literally entertain me everyday, even with your random rambling. :)
ReplyDeleteOf course my selfish self says no, don't stop blogging. You're too fabulous. The world needs your beautiful loud human voice, even if it's just about breakfast. Breakfast is fucking awesome! Especially when Azia writes about it.
ReplyDeleteI think you should keep blogging. I read your blogs all the time. I love seeing pictures of you and Eva and all you guys do. Hope you have a good day :)
ReplyDeleteIn a pathetic attempt to get you to stay, I've given you an award. :-)
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